Maybe If My Heart Stops Beating...It Won't Hurt This Much

chocho carcel: love hurts idol

layla_kiener: it truly does. lol

chocho carcel: sus..soon ma anad naka..it wont hurt anymore. look at us!!! anad na kaayu mura nag wala.

layla_kiener: hahaha ataya. girls will never get used to the feeling of heartbreak

chocho carcel: lagi

layla_kiener:LOL

chocho carcel: sus idol..daghan nakog kaila nga anad na sa feeling. yul see. if it doesent kill you...it will make u stronger.

isn't that so true though?? love hurts. and so does life. i seriously think God really hates me or is getting some sick amusement is seeing me in pain. what did i do to deserve all of this?? it's like every day...one fucking problem after the other. it's just piling up and one day...my tower's just gonna break and fall down.

yesterday, some bitch stole P900.00 from my wallet at school. ahhhh this really sucks. but whatever, since i don't wanna throw myself a pity party...let's just hope that girl just really needed the cash. cause, hey i'm trying to be optimistic here. but whatever lies ahead for me, i'm totally prepared for it. i made a vow to myself that i'm gonna slow down for now because over the summer, i had fun...maybe TOO much. if i go out, i'm probably just gonna go to the mall or someone's house and then dinner. no more vudu or paseo for a while. after i'm grounded that is. i'm sooo sick of people making something an issue when it's not even an issue to begin with. just like in my previous post, people just stay out of my life. you don't know me.

hahaiiii. i'm pissed at the moment. anyways i'm going to fit my dress today that i'm gonna wear to a wedding next week. i'm excited to see it. at least i'll have something to look forward to later. and i'll probably see 2 of my favorite girls today if they come over and make their project here :) so we'll see how this day goes. i'll update you all later.


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Boo You Whore

Finally, I decided to cut the crap and stop being so damn lazy! Haha. I've actually been productive in school, doing all the work and assignments on time, doing well on quizzes, NOT sleeping. I hope i can keep this up! ;) This week has overall been a good week and i'm semi looking forward to the weekend. Only SEMI though...since i'm grounded and all. hopefully, since i'm just in paradise, i'll be allowed to go to ina's house. i hope i hope i hope. hayyy. if not dammit i wish school was every fucking day! hahahahahah. i'm such a geek.

I've recently taken a liking to reading lately. haha i decided to read inspirational stuff cause that's kinda what i need right now. a little pick me up :) so i started reading Tuesdays With Morrie. it's sucha sweet story. I can't wait to get to the meat of it. Haven't stopped reading it all day. haha well of course except for right now. HAHA lol anyways, it just give us all a better outlook on life and why we definitely shouldn't take it for granted. cause i'm pretty sure we do sometimes.

anyways, i don't have much to say, today! friday tomorrow...woohoo[and i say that with all sarcasm in the world] hahahah. ciao!

With Love

My creative juices aren't exactly flowing at the very moment but what the heck. After a not so long day at school today, Ina and I baked some delish oatmeal cookies after school. I felt pretty accomplished. ;) The English quiz we had today was a piece of cake[i'm so hoping i'm not gonna have to eat my words after i see my score. haha] and other than that, i talked most of the day but got everything i needed to get done, well, done.

on another note, we had quite a funny class this morning. "lades, you know what this word mens? [spells it out on the board] 'flagiarism'." HAHAHAHAH what kind of teacher can't spell plagiarism??????

At lunch the girls and i had a pretty intimate conversation about pregnancy, sex and abortion and the likes. it's a pretty scary topic i don't wanna have to experience 'til i'm married! HAHA seriously, well abortion i never wanna have to experience. dude i'm really blanking out right now. hahaha peace!

The Boy Next Door

Paradise Village. Means what it's called. HAHA =p it truly is Paradise. can you keep a secret?? he walked me home today! :) it was nice. not awkward at all...perfect. i'm smitten. that's all i can say.

besides that, i overall had a really good day today. school flew by quickly, good conversations with my girls and the perfect way to end my day. i've really got to say, things are finally starting to get better. and hopefully starting off the week on a good foot means this weeks gonna be good too, right? well i sure hope so.

finally spoke to sister and we both made our peace. i just realized we both have our different points and we just gotta meet somewhere in between and somehow just compromize. knowing how both of us really feels makes things a whole lot easier. it's a fair game now. but i just feel like i need time to myself to think about things.

this is gonna be a short one tonight, not like anyone reads this shit or anything. but i like having this around to remind me of how things used to be. and it's sort of like a stress reliever. i hope he walks me home again. he seems like one of the very few decent guys in cebu, if not the only one left. and i like that about him. my overprotective cousin even approves. i guess that's a good sign ;) goodnight, everyone.

-smitten

The Sign of Better Days Ahead

So honestly speaking, the past two days made me feel like a pile of shit...no scratch that, make it two piles of shit. Not only did I have to stay home on a friday night, but saturday was just a mark of the day i walked out and never looked back. I had to tell my very much awaited visitor on friday night, that he couldn't come over just because. Of course I was bummed out, I mean I was anxious to see him! =(

Then Saturday came and Cielo, Arden, Nikki and Kim came over with a bottle of rhum to ease the pain and some sprite to chase along with it. I thought everything would be okay until sister walked into the room and accidentally hit the unknown bottles with her feet only to find out that we were hiding the rhum. What luck, huh? I think God finds it quite amusing to punish me like this. I mean first, I got grounded for two months, but now getting caught hiding rhum in my room? Not cool. It's not like my sister doesn't know that we drink. But the fact that she had to catch us hiding it made it worse. So i texted her to apologize and i was at the very least, apologetic for my actions because I knew I was wrong. I'm ALWAYS wrong to her. AND she hits me back with something so irrelevant to what we were arguing about in the first place. After that, I just realized I WAS DONE. I got up, went to my dad's sister's house and never looked back. I cried like a baby because my sister never made me feel so unwanted in my whole life. Not only did she make me feel unwanted, but my parents have never EVER made me feel that way EVER. I never knew the feeling until today. I just realized that it was time for me to make a change in my life and i feel so relieved. Now i'm here at my cousin's house and i honestly, have never felt any better. I'm not saying i'm completely disowning my sister and saying that what she did was wrong... but it's just that i need time to myself and time to figure out myself.

In times when i needed a sister, i got a mother. I already have a mother so why do i need two to yell at me everytime do something wrong in my life?? I just sometimes need a sister to talk to and make kwento to when I have a new crush, or about the cute guy i danced with the other night, or that time i almost bitch slapped a girl for talking shit about my girlfriends or that time i got so wasted but i had a blast. But instead, i got someone who judges me unendingly, a person i can't tell eveything to and a person i'm scared to open up to because i'm scared to get grounded AGAIN. I'm totally not questioning her and her morals or who she's trying to make me to be because that's understandable. I live with her and her rules and she's just trying to make me become a good person. But it just got to the point where it got to be too much. And i felt smothered. I hate having to hide things from my sister because i wanna be able to tell her why i'm so kilig all the time or why i'm sad. Couldn't she at least give me that? Well i'm just really babbling now but... i had to let all of this out sometime and i finally just blew up.

On the lighter side of things, I feel a lot better now that I got this out. And sister called me a while ago and she sounded uber guilty. But for now, my minds made up.

-lost and soo not in control =/

Couch Potatos and Lazy Days

No school tomorrow! Some education day and whatnot. Usually I would be EXTREMELY excited for the weekend ahead and since, tomorrow's friday and there's no school, all the more reason to party right? LOL but this weekend, I'm just gonna hang out at home in my room watching DVD's all day and being a couch potato. Oh the glory. hehehe i'm kinda excited to just stay home and veg out all day because I haven't done that in a while. I bought a shitload of DVD's this afternoon which include: the whole first season of Ugly Betty, The Reaping, Step Up, Epic Movie, Season 1 of Golden Girls, Knocked Up, Stomp The Yard and The Number 23. That should last me the whole weekend, right? And I still have yet to finish the 4th and last season of the OC. I bought junkfood for this weekend too, damn I'm getting excited just thinking about it! HAHA then saturday, Cielo and Claire are coming over to work on our Computer project and I guess the rest of the troupe is gonna come and visit, so I guess it won't be that bad!

Had our first quiz in CLF and Physics today. I am totally hoping I aced that Physics quiz cause it was quite simple...I'm hoping I did pretty well! But CLF i'm pretty damn sure I got a low score. She freakin quizzed us on the institutional mass we had at school this morning about what the priest said during his Homily and a bunch of stuff about mass...I wasn't exactly paying attention at mass, oopsie. Cielo and I just went on blabbing about random stuff like always, until the teacher separated us. Like that was gonna stop us! HAHA i still didn't listen then cause I found someone else to talk to! HAHAH oh mannn. I still have a chance to make up for the quiz though, I hope!

We were supposed to have a raid in school today and I'm sure most of you don't get the concept of it, but our school for some gay reason, doesn't allow us to bring cellphones to school. NOT AT ALL. And if you get caught bringing one, you're pretty much in deep trouble. But most of us still bring em to school anyway. Like i said, teenage rebellion. hahahah. So i brought my phone to school today only finding out after lunch that we were due to have a raid. SO I PANICKED. i swear i almost had a panic attack cause I had nooo idea where to hide my phone. Then my classmate gave me a brilliant idea and gave me a box. So i put my phone at the bottom of the box and covered it with all my markers and pens and shit. THANK GOD I HAD A LOT. but to my dismay, we didn't have a raid. WTF?! whoever spread that we were, I'm gonna kill you! hahaha oh well better safe than sorry :p anyways, that was my exciting day. sister and i are starting to get okay again, after the whole grounded situation. everytime i get grounded we always seem to get closer. i guess it's a good thing. anyways, ciao! enjoy your thursday night! i know i will be :)

yours truly,

the couch potato

Let The Rain Fall Down

Day two of my groundage session and here I am, blogging again. Woohoo! Haha told you you'd be seeing more of me. So as I was at school today, I found myself not so bummed out about being grounded at all. I'm just gonna stay out of the public eye for quite a bit and the next time I'm back, I'm gonna come back with a big bang! ;) (not literally of course hahahahah) time's gonna fly by quickly and the next thing I know, August's here. And most of all this whole year's gonna breeze by pretty quickly. Next thing we know, it's sem break, then Christmas then Sinulog then My 18th birthday(which of course I'm not having a debut. that stuff's pretty overrated for me haha) THEN graduation. OMG thinking about it makes me feel so ollldd! ugh. Imagine how our parents must feel. HAHAHA

being weird again. hahaiiiiiii. i'm sad and depressed RIGHT THIS VERY MOMENT for some strange reason. ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! please tell me that something good's gonna happen in these next 2 months i'm grounded. just something, to keep me SANE! lol cause this really sucks. HAHA i know i'm being a complete hippocrite as to what i've just said but what the hell, i'm being bitter again.

on the lighter side of things, school was okay today. and my friends and i just talked about the randomnosity of our random nights. things just happen. and it happens to the best of us. so people, stop judging us and think about yourself. it's probably happened to you or will happen to you. i just hate people that sit there and look at people and judge. but then again, i probably hate myself. cause i tend to do that sometimes. but seriously, random stuff probably did happen to you in the past. so get on with it and shut your mouths. but i guess we're only humans, right? and given that our town is THAT small, secrets never stay secrets. what happens in cebu, stays in cebu. that's how the sayings supposed to go. but i like to say what happens in cebu, people usually find out the next day. hahaha pretty clever. oh joy. i wanna go to the beach and get a tan, i got new sunnies that i wanna use :)

Life and It's Unexpected Glory

....so grounded again....for another TWO MONTHS. the next time i'll be out and back in society is on August 19, 2007. not so bad eh?? see you guys then ;) well at this point in my life i believe it's better to be an optimist rather than sit here and be bitter about life. after all it WAS my fault.

and i sit here...thinking to myself what the fuck have i gotten myself into AGAIN?! well the thing is, i've been grounded SO much in the past 3 years of highschool that after this sentence that i have to face I DEFINITELY KNOW BETTER not to do this shit again. like the saying goes "old enough to know better, too young to care" i guess the trouble we get ourselves into is just part of the "teenage rebellion" phase that i'm pretty sure most of us face. and it's just a neverending question as to why we do this. do you know why we do this?...thought so. maybe it's just the thrill we seek and the fun of it all when we say to ourselves the next day "shit that was fun!!!" well the being grounded for months part isn't that much fun. but hey...at least you get to find something productive to do. and...the money you get to save up. ahhh. HAHA i'm a loser.

so the point is...i used to be a bitter little bitch when it came to me being grounded but now i'd rather think that it'll all be better and the next time i go out...it's just gonna be so much better! oh life and it's little ups and downs. guess you're gonna be seeing much much more of me here on my little blogger. peace out! don't have too much fun while i'm gone ;)

-the ex not so ex convict.

Lusting for Words

I finally started school yesterday and I'm glad to say, I'm finally a senior! It's hard for me to believe that I've already made it this far in life when it seemed like just yesterday, I was venturing off to kindergarten thinking what it would be like to be one of the big kids. Well, I'm finally here and I'm happy to say, being one of the big kids is pretty friggin awesome. It has it's limits.

The first few days of school are always a drag. Listening to the teachers talk about their expectations for us and our expectations for them. It's all the same EVERY year so what would make it ANY different? ...ugh whatever. But I feel pretty lame that i was so hyped up for school cause now, I miss summer like hell. It's been one hell of a summer that I totally didn't expect it to be. After school yesterday I was so depressed, reminiscing about the summer that was. =\ oh well, I'm so glad it happened and that I got to experience it! HAHA before I know it, I'm gonna be graduating and heading off into the unknown. I better buckle up ;)

Enough about school, my question is...why is it that the more you hate, the more you love? That line really messes with my head. Because i feel it's coming true for me! I'm not gonna explain any further but I'm just gonna leave it at that. I'm so full of mixed emotions right now I don't even know what to feel. I hate drama. But in Cebu, you can't seem to avoid it. It follows you everywhere you go. Just like in Laguna Beach, every boy here seems to have a tag. It's like "i dated him in the 5th grade so no, you can't date him" what the hell?

Anyways, my eyes are dropping and i feel like I'm in the twilight zone. I guess it's time to go to bed. School's so tiring and I'm so glad It's Friday tomorrow! Party time. And THANK GOD It's a long weekend. Just wanted to start blogging again. I kinda missed it ;)

The Jingle Bell Rock

Merry Christmas! Hope you all had an amazing Christmas, just like I did. I hope you all got everything you asked for and ... maybe even more. I know I sure did ... well the more part at least. If you know what I'm saying. HAHA. Kiddinnngggg.

New Year's is just around the corner and it's time to party and get drunk. Whatta way to bring in the New Year. I love it and I can't wait.

Oh yes, my weekend was a crazy one. But what do you expect ... it is the season to be naughty ... not nice. HAHA.

Good God, I'm craving for something. And I can't figure out what it is. I'm gonna go and try to find that thing. If that's even possible.

Lotsa Love,

Miss Tease

I Like Where We Are, When We Drive In Your Car

Oh baby, last night was crazy. Enough said.

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Just Like A Star

Damn, I had a pretty good day today.

Since I was sick yesterday, as soon as I got home from school, I went online for a few and slept all afternoon. After I slept, I had dinner with my family and then layed in bed and watched Entourage[dammit Vinnie Chase is one hot piece of ass] and went to bed by 11 and slept 'til 9 this morning. HAHA. You could say I'm pretty well rested. I had the most beautiful sleep of my life. I finally have a voice again. Thank God.

When I woke up this morning, I headed to Casino to have breakfast with the girls. They were there so early cause they attended Simbang Gabi which I wasn't present for since I was ... well yeah sleeping. HAHA. Hey! I'm sick, remember? =p They went swimming and tanning while I just sat there under the shade wishing I brought my bathing suit. Fuck this being sick. HAHA. But yeah I need to get better. We had lunch there .. care of me and Nicole. Had a morning full of laughter, chikka and camwhoring. After lunch, we went to Cielo's house.

While I was in Cielo's house, Inez called me and told me she was in Ayala with Bea. So I made apas nalang since I was itching to go to Ayala since kanina. HAHA. =p Met up with her in East West. After that, I met up with my sister to help her with her last minute Christmas shopping. Hahai. Ran into sila Rico. LOL.

Went home at around 6:30 and got ready. We were having dinner at this new resort in Mactan called Abaca. It was my Tito's birthday. The food was orgasmic. Like SUPER orgasmic. ALL of it was good. Haha and we were all stuffed. The best part was desert. I had Creme Brulee which is my favoritest of all favorite deserts. Mmmmm. Yes, I went home a VERY happy camper. Haha.

I guess tomorrow I'll be bumming around with the girls somewhere. Gotta make plans for tomorrow night cause it's a Friday, baby. Can't waste a single day. Hope you guys are enjoying your Christmas Vacation as much as I am. You guys all better be behaving yourselves [although i know i won't be. haha!] ... Christmas is in three days. Santa's watching, you greedy little things. HAHA


XoX,

Layla

I Have The Sniffles

Periodical exams are finally over. We're free! Today was an easy day. English and Christian Life Formation. Hahai. And i was sick in school today. I was sick the whole day actually. My body hurt. Even my hair hurt. I'm taking myself back to yesterday. Ina and I were standing in line in a store waiting to pay. This little kid ... about 10 or something SNEEZED ON ME. Like four times. And I whispered to Ina "In, if this little kid gets me sick on Christmas, I'm gonna kick his ass" oh man! Where the HELL is that little kid? Now i got a runny nose, a sore throat, a cough and a fever. God, he just ruined the holidays for me. HAHA kidding. Everyone at home is getting sick too. Argh.

But yes, to no avail I STILL had enough energy to go to the mall. I went after school with Ina to go shopping around for her manita. Her mom bought me THE most adorable dress for her Christmas gift to me. I love Tita Candy. So Ina and I finally went home. And I thought i was gonna finally be able to rest. But Inez invited to to watch a movie at Ayala with her and Bea. We watched Deck The Halls. It was pretty damn funny. I felt like shit the whole time but i still maintained composure. Had dinner at Ayala and ran into SJ, Lesty, Niko, Love, Andie, David Cua, Manu, and Steven Lava. Went home at around 9. I'm finally home.

I STILL won't be able to rest. I need to work on a book report. FUCK. I better not be sick tomorrow. I wanna party. Hahai. Yes! Christmas break is finally starting to begin. I love it.

whispers hello, I miss you quite terribly. There's no place else i could be but here in your arms.

Lotsa Love,

Layla

The Best Thing That You Never Had

School resumed as usual, today. Exams. Geometry, Technology and Home Economics and Social Studies. Yes, they were hell but thank God i got through them. One more day of hell and we're free. YES!

After school went to Ayala with Ina for yet again, MORE SHOPPING. I told you, it never gets boring. This time, we were with her parents. I was looking around Rustans trying to find a gift for me from my parents. It all goes down to: A Billabong Bikini, Anna Sui Perfume or The Juicy Necklace. Whatchu think? I can't decide. Rawr. Haha.

Merienda came just after the long shopping, at Cafe Georg. I love the food there. Ina and I got to talking about our futures. Funny, huh? We're gonna be fourth year na next year. That's such a big step. We're all finally growing up. *tear* HAHA. We kept talking about where we're gonna go for college and what courses we're gonna take up. I'm still in between. Marketing sounds really fun but so does Business Management. So many choices and so little time. Just like boys. HAHAHAH just kidding =p

Prefferably, I want to get in a college somewhere near Makati but obviously, Ateneo or La Salle is farrr from that area. Hmph. I wanna be near all the partying. =)) Tsk tsk. I can't wait to graduate and move away from this little bubble. But nonetheless, i love this tiny bubble. It never gets old. Funny though how small a city can be. EVERYONE and literally i mean everyone, knows your secrets. All your dirty laundry gets aired in this city. It's like *you think I don't know. but i do.* hahai. Gossip. Yes, people in Cebu live off of each others gossip. We all breathe gossip. Come on ... Don't deny it. I know you're probably nodding your head as you read this right now. HAHA.

School's gonna be over soon. People are coming home and night outs are just gonna get juicier and juicier. Afterall, 'Tis The Season To Get Naughty. Oh how i love Christmas. This is our time to shine, baby. I'll be seeing all your hot asses around Cebu! <3

Lotsa Love,

Layla

Intolerable Cruelty

So amidst all the shopping and chaos i created in Manila I still had time to do some more damage on Daddy's credit card. HAHA I went shopping with my sister the whole afternoon. Shopping does get tiring sometimes, huh? But it never gets old. That's for sure. =p

I don't even know what I want for Christmas. Just a plane ticket back to Manila. A ONE WAY TICKET. HAHA. Oh and I hope Santa gives me a boy for Christmas. Prefferably a nice one that doesn't break hearts. Santa if you can hear me? That's what I want. lmao.

So anyways, when I got home last night I got to thinking. Yes, I actually do this sometimes. I thought about relationships. My past relationships and hopefully my future relationships. I haven't actually had an ACTUAL relationship or anything that I can call love. Afterall, love is only a feeling. Well except for that time that I thought i was in love. I think that was just a mere figment of my imagination. Haha. Something ALWAYS managed to get in the way of my happiness. Tsk tsk. Why does it always happen? Boys never fail to break my heart. Or was it the other way around? Haha I'm kidding. I just want a guy that will call me up at random times during the day to tell me he misses me. Or randomly surprises me in the middle of the day because I miss him. A guy that won't rush into things and most importantly a guy that won't play around with my heart. Are guys like this totally obsolete from the world?

Anyways, instead of pondering on the unknown species of a Male, I think I should be studying for Social Studies or something like that.

So i sit here and leave you with this last thought. Is love ever really enough?

XOXO, Layla

Where The Party At?

So here's to another successful Saturday. It's currently 1:20 AM and I just got home from my cousin dearest's surprise birthday party at Maria Luisa. Happy 18th Birthday, Ilian. I love you.

Spent the afternoon at Ayala with Cielo, Nikki, Kim, David, Paolo Gomez and Paolo Candari. Watched this really boring called, Fragile or something like that. Everyone was screaming and i was like huh? you guys are scared? I seriously now believe, i have no fear in watching scary movies. I've seen too many. Tsk tsk. I'm boring. HAHA.

Anyways, I get a call from someone telling me it's my cousins surprise party tonight. I'm like FUCK it's his birthday. Nikki and Cielo leave David and I at Ayala so we head off to La Bona for dinner. Yummy. So freakin' random, I swear.

After dinner, we went to Marianne's house and oopsie, the surprise was already over. Tsk! We stayed for a while and went to Formo to watch Niko Carcel's fashion show. Ooh wee Danielle, Christina and I were drooling over the hot models. We stayed for a bit and got some drinks and decided we wanted massages. So we head over to the spa, all excited to get our rub downs and we're standing there in front of the girl for like 15 minutes trying to decide whether we wanted a foot massage or a full body massage. We finally decide. Full body massage it is! So we told the girl what we wanted and she's all " We have no available therapists" *long pause* "We close in 15 minutes" so all of us just walk out of there and we're like WTF!! We were standing right in front of her for 20 minutes and she only tells us now?! One hell of a laugh trip.

So we're like dammit. Fine! We went back to the party. Chilled with Ilian and went home.

Yes, Christmas break is just around the corner. Time to party, baby. I love it. =) 'Til next time. Hope you all had an amazingly amazing weekend. I'm off to watch The Long Weekend.

I'm still contemplating whether I should study tomorrow for exams or not. Tsk tsk. I know i should be. But what the hell.

Lotsa Hugs and Kisses,

Miss Treat.

You're A Disgrace To The Human Race

So I was listening to this song and it got me thinking. It kinda reminds me of something. HAHA =p Check out the lyrics and download the song. Shimoli- Damned. This one goes out to you.


Boy you reminded me of putting these things into words
And save them, for a rainy day
Your shameful heart and sinful soul
Oh, I'm amazed by you and all that you are

Your devious ways, you do the work of the dark forces in this world
And you're evil, oh yes you are

CHORUS:
Damned, you're one man I just can't stand you're
Damned, you built your castle on the sand, you're
Damned, How could I ever want you for my man?
I've lost you now, so why do I care?

You really knew right from the start
How to work your way into my heart
And then you pulled the trigger, you shot me around the weakest (part)
You're a disgrace to the human race with your pretty face

Your devious ways, you do the work of the dark forces in this world
And you're evil, oh yes you are

Damned, you're one man I just can't stand you're
Damned, you built your castle on the sand, you're
Damned, How could I ever want you for my man?
I've lost you now, so why do I care?

Your devious ways, you do the work of the dark forces in the world
And you're evil, oh yes you are

Damned, you're one man I just can't stand you're
Damned, you built your castle on the sand, you're
Damned, How could I ever want you for my man?
I've lost you now, so why do I care? (Why do I care?)

Damned, you're one man I just can't stand you're
Damned, you built your castle on the sand, you're
Damned, How could I ever want you for my man?
I've lost you now, so why do I care?

Damned - So why do I care?



Here's to teenage romance and not knowing why it hurts like hell. =/

Dazed and Confused

So yeah, I guess I'm gonna start blogging on this thing. Just out of boredom.

Woke up extremely late today. I usually wake up at 6AM and it turns out, my alarm clock was going off until 6:50. SHIT! Gotta get used to this whole ... being back from my vacation, kinda thing. I still have my Manila hangover. Damn. So anyways, I get to school and I realize I still have to pay for the damn periodical test fee. Wait in line for about 20 minutes in the heat. Get to class and take the test for Chemistry. That was hard. Did the teacher honestly expect us to answer THAT exam in an hour? *rolls eyes* PE was easy .. Health was a bitch and Filipino? Piece of cake. HAHAH =p

Anyways, I'm glad It's finally the weekend again. Bum around some more. I miss Manila. That trip was the best. Met up with Inez, Vito, Ixxa and them. Took me around and I have to say, I am definitely going there for college. Loved every bit of it. Too many yummy boys walking around for my own good. Good God. HAHA.
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I've been so bummed out lately. I have no idea why. Don't feel like talking to anyone or do anything. I've been sitting and staring a lot lately. Fuck.

Christmas is just around the corner. I can't say that I'm excited. I usually am though. This year ... Hmm ... Not feeling the Christmas spirit at all. But then again, come Christmas time, hotties from out of town are coming back home. So I guess that excites me. HAHA. Here I go again. Damn boys. Why do you guys have to be such assholes, sometimes? Tsk tsk tsk!

Ooh and Inez is coming back home tomorrow. I can't wait to see that girl again. I love her. She made my trip to Manila so worthwhile. Thanks Nez. You have no idea how much i love you <33 haha.

Anyways, I guess that's it. I need to find something else to do.

Ciao!